Steph's Journal

Wow

2007-08-13T13:10:37Z

All I can say right now is wow. It's been awhile since I've updated in here at all. I almost completely forgot about LJ. SO I figured I'd up date. Well my life was pretty much the same old boring shit. Up until this year. This year my life got really weird. My grandparents passing away. Then my car starting on fire. That was the scariest thing to see something go up in flames, knowing that if you didn't get out of it or couldn't get out of it that you could have died in that car fire that day. That was the day I realized how important life is. Then losing the guy I thought was the love of my life which he wasn't. He was just convient because I had feelings for someone else who I couldn't be with. then I had gallbladder surger in March. Then it got kinda boring. I moved out of my mom's house for awhile. Then someone came back into my life that I've had these feelings for over a year. Well we had sex. I ended up pregnant. I told him and he was thrilled. Then he disapperaed. I didnt' hear from him for over 2 months. Then last friday, His brother tried getting ahold of me. Then his friend Joe got ahold of me. Telling me that Travis was in jail and he's out now and he wants me to get ahold of him. So I called him where he was staying and we talked. He asked me if I would come up to Green Bay to see him and I said yeah let me shower. So I got ready and everything and I drove up there. I got to see him. The funny thing seeing him brought back all those feelings I had before. It's weird because I never thought anything would happen. He was always so stubborn and bullheaded. He said me being pregnant finally gave him the push he needed to date me. He told me that he wanted to for awhile but he was always scared too. After I saw him in MAy I asked him what was going on between us and he said he wasn't ready yet. Which what really happened is that he found he was possibly going to Prison. Which turned out to be that he only went to jail for 2 months and his probation is extended until he can get the money to pay it off. then he's completely off. It's just been so amazing. I can't sum up into words how good I feel right now. After a year of trying, I'm finally with this guy. And he's not just with me because I'm pregnant. He's with me because he actually does have feelings for me.

Tell someone you care about that you love them. Life is too short

2007-01-04T18:14:40Z

Yesterday I came to realize that life is way too short. I got a call from my stepmom and my dad yesterday while I was at work. A phone call I never thought in a million years I would get. On December 31st, my stepgrandparents were killed in a car accident. I was stunned and shocked as I am sure everyone was when they found out. It's jsut made me realize how short and precious life is and people waste their time being angry or hurting people. I say stop and think. When they are gone, you'll regret the way you treated them. So treate people the way you want to be treated. You never know when your time is up. Right now, my family needs me and I am going to be there for them. Never ever take anything or anyone for granted. Stop and tell someone you care about that you love them. If you are fighting with someone, Stop and think and then say your sorry. Work things out with that person. Life is too precious to waste

So what am I not supposed to have an opinion....

2006-01-24T06:19:12Z

So what am I not supposed to have an opinion
Should I be quiet just because I'm a woman
Call me a bitch cos I speak what's on my mind
Guess it's easier for you to swallow if I sat and smiled

When a female fires back
Suddenly the target don't know how to act
So he does what any little boy will do
Making up a few false rumors or two

That for sure is not a man to me
Slanderin' names for popularity
It's sad you only get your fame through controversy
But now it's time for me to come and give you more to say

This is for my girls all around the world
Who've come across a man who don't respect your worth
Thinking all women should be seen, not heard
So what do we do girls?
Shout louder!
Letting them know we're gonna stand our ground
Lift your hands high and wave them proud
Take a deep breath and say it loud
Never can, never will, can't hold us down

Nobody can hold us down
Nobody can hold us down
Nobody can hold us down
Never can, never will

So what am I not supposed to say what I'm saying
Are you offended by the message I'm bringing
Call me whatever cos your words don't mean a thing
Guess you ain't even a man enough to handle what I sing

If you look back in history
It's a common double standard of society
The guy gets all the glory the more he can score
While the girl can do the same and yet you call her a whore

I don't understand why it's okay
The guy can get away with it & the girl gets named
All my ladies come together and make a change
Start a new beginning for us everybody sing

This is for my girls all around the world
Who've come across a man who don't respect your worth
Thinking all women should be seen, not heard
What do we do girls?
Shout louder!
Letting them know we're gonna stand our ground
Lift your hands high and wave 'em proud
Take a deep breath and say it loud
Never can, never will, can't hold us down

[Lil' Kim:]
Check it - Here's something I just can't understand
If the guy have three girls then he's the man
He can either give us some head, sex her off
If the girl do the same, then she's a whore
But the table's about to turn
I'll bet my fame on it
Cats take my ideas and put their name on it
It's aiight though, you can't hold me down
I got to keep on movin'
To all my girls with a man who be tryin to mack
Do it right back to him and let that be that
You need to let him know that his game is whack
And Lil' Kim and Christina Aguilera got your back

But you're just a little boy
Think you're so cute, so coy
You must talk so big
To make up for small lil' things
So you're just a little boy
All you'll do is annoy
You must talk so big
To make up for small lil' things

This is for my girls...
This is for my girls all around the world
Who've come across a man who don't respect your worth
Thinking all women should be seen, not heard
So what do we do girls?
Shout louder!
Letting them know we're gonna stand our ground
Lift your hands high and wave 'em proud
Take a deep breath and say it loud
Never can, never will, can't hold us down

This is for my girls all around the world
Who've come across a man who don't respect your worth
Thinking all women should be seen, not heard
So what do we do girls?
Shout louder!
Letting them know we're gonna stand our ground
Lift your hands high and wave 'em proud
Take a deep breath and say it loud
Never can, never will, can't hold us down
Spread the word, can't hold us down

Check this band out!

2005-03-28T04:05:09Z

This is a Madison Wisconsin based Band. They are called Bascom Hill.. Check them out. They have a few songs on the site.

http://www.myspace.com/bascomhillband

Great band, Check them out

2004-08-06T05:47:03Z

http://www.ingramhillmusic.com

Maybe her eyes are just a little bit red
Almost all the time
Maybe her hair, it smells like cigarettes
When I climb into bed with her at night

She don't wanna try
But this just feels so right

She's almost perfect
She is so close to being everything
She's almost perfect
But she's not, she's not mine

Maybe she knows she drives me crazy
Just bats her eyes like she's my baby
Maybe she's quick to let her tongue fly at me
She's not the most proper lady
I'm the one to blame I know I caused this crash
So now I wander in this mess
Int this lake of sour mashed
Through my head the notion that

Maybe she's not quite honest with me
Almost all the time
Maybe I know there's someone else in her life
When I climb into bed with her at night

10 hours!! 10 fucking hours!!!

2004-06-23T16:40:17Z

I get to see Rascal Flatts in 10 hours!!! They are like one of my favorite Country groups and I finally get to see them in concert!!! Oh god I am so excited!!! So is my mom. Hopefully it won't rain. Hopefully!!! Even if it does.. I don't care!!!! I get to see Rascal Flatts. I am in such a good mood right now. Actually I have been in a good mood since last night thanks to my two dear friends Abby and Greg. They both cheered me up. I am very grateful for friends like that. I was really down with everythign going on and the fact I am tired of being alone. I talked to Abby and then I talked to Greg and they both made me feel better. I know Greg won't read this because he doesn't have livejournal, But Abby, Thank you darling. I <3 you. Anyways, My last paycheck in July. I have to get him something for his birthday because I won't get paid until the week after his birthday. He's gonna be 30 this year. I've known him since March I do believe and he's a good friend. I've hung out with him a few times. Anyways, I have to work today. I have to work 1pm-4pm. Mary asked me to come in and help prep for the pig roast on Saturday and I said that I would. God this Saturday is gonna really suck. Seeing as how I have to work 7am-7pm. What in the hell was I thinking when I said that I would work Supper that night. I think I am pretty messed up in the head. Oh well It gives me more money on my check next week and then I"ll be able to get my tattoo next saturday. Yeah I made my appointment. I have to talk to Mary to see if I can duck out of work early that Saturday because my appointment is at 2pm. Well i am gonna go.

Part 2

2004-04-20T06:57:50Z

shortbus_pimp (1:25:44 AM): my hotdog stand is operational
ice_princess1226 (1:25:48 AM): Really?
shortbus_pimp (1:26:29 AM): im importing a troop of mail-order brides to run it
ice_princess1226 (1:26:36 AM): Why?
shortbus_pimp (1:27:10 AM): good honest labor
ice_princess1226 (1:27:18 AM): Ahhh
ice_princess1226 (1:27:22 AM): That's always good
shortbus_pimp (1:28:01 AM): besides if they cant speak english then they cant talk back
ice_princess1226 (1:28:08 AM): Good reason
ice_princess1226 (1:28:36 AM): Can I help?
shortbus_pimp (1:28:57 AM): if you promise not to talk back
ice_princess1226 (1:29:14 AM): You have my promise Mike
shortbus_pimp (1:29:24 AM): i win
ice_princess1226 (1:29:30 AM): Yes.. Yes you do
shortbus_pimp (1:29:54 AM): but im still getting mail order brides from either ukraine or something
shortbus_pimp (1:30:05 AM): i hope they smell really bad
ice_princess1226 (1:30:14 AM): Why smell bad?
shortbus_pimp (1:30:25 AM): then i can spongebathe them
ice_princess1226 (1:30:40 AM): Ahhh
ice_princess1226 (1:30:51 AM): Good plan
shortbus_pimp (1:31:20 AM): i amde a story about the actress who started her career by doing wet tshirt contests
ice_princess1226 (1:31:31 AM): Can I hear?
shortbus_pimp (1:31:54 AM): its short
shortbus_pimp (1:32:35 AM): basically she went to hollywood to become an actress and had to do wet tshirt contests to pay rent. in the end she turned into a pornstar
shortbus_pimp (1:32:51 AM): got aids and married magic johnson
ice_princess1226 (1:33:01 AM):
shortbus_pimp (1:34:04 AM): she lost
ice_princess1226 (1:34:25 AM): No fun
ice_princess1226 (1:34:37 AM): Did anyone win?
shortbus_pimp (1:35:06 AM): all the spectators at the wet tshirt contests
shortbus_pimp (1:35:15 AM): til they found out she was a guy
ice_princess1226 (1:35:32 AM): Wow I would have been pissed if I was them
shortbus_pimp (1:36:20 AM): if i type in pink does that make me gay?
ice_princess1226 (1:36:34 AM): To same people, But I wouldn't ever say you were
shortbus_pimp (1:37:25 AM): i just found out today i might be pregnant
ice_princess1226 (1:37:39 AM): Who knocked you up?
shortbus_pimp: why so quiet?
ice_princess1226: Computer suck
shortbus_pimp: ?
ice_princess1226: My computer messed up on me
shortbus_pimp: sure you dont want a half me/ half retreiver pup for 20%
ice_princess1226: Sure why not
shortbus_pimp: 20% is only a hotdog here and there, not a lot
ice_princess1226: It works

I love this song!!!!

2004-04-02T05:46:32Z

I've fallen in love with you
Please, tell me, tell me what else was there to do
When feelin lips like yours and looking into eyes like yours
Oh, I might as well face it
Cause it's true
Yes, I've fallen in love with you

Oh, my beating heart wants you
And my empty arms need you
Don't you go, please stay
And never try to send me away

I've fallen in love with you (ooh baby, please stay)
I've fallen in love with you

I've fallen in love with you
And you've just got to feel the same way too
When you embraced me last night
Lord knows it was pure, such pure delight

Oh, my beating heart wants you
And my empty arms need you
Don't you go, please stay
And never try to send me away

Oh yes, my love
Oh yes, my love
My darlin
I've fallen in love with you
I've fallen in love

I've fallen so deep in love you see
Until you become the very soul of me
Let me tell you something,
I don't care enough anyway
All over, hey, all over my face it shows
Said I'm talkin bout love this time
Oh, yes I am
And you know what?
It's not a schoolgirl crush

Oh no, no [x12]

Ooh, baby, yea
Oh my beating heart wants you
And my empty arms need you
Don't you go, please stay
And never try to send me away
My beating heart wants you
And my empty arms need you
Don't you go, please stay
And never try to send me away

I've fallen in love with you (yes, my love)
I've fallen in love with you (in love with you, in love with you)
I've fallen in love with you (it's not infatuation cause I would really know)
I've fallen in love with you
(My beating heart wants you, you know, you know, you know, you know, you know it wants you)
I've fallen in love with you
(I've fallen for you)
I've fallen in love
(I'm falling in love)
I've fallen in love with you
(Tell me, what else was there to do?)
I've fallen in love

I got my tattoo

2004-02-13T20:53:21Z

that is my tattoo, it is almost 3 hours old

innocent_eyes21 @ 2004-02-01T19:03:00

2004-02-02T01:03:38Z

GO PANTHERS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Yeah

2004-01-27T04:35:51Z

Hey you, its me again.
I tried to call yesterday.
And the words I had,
To say to you,
Somehow they all slipped away.
Please talk to me,
Whatever is wrong.
You know I'd help you out.
How will I know,
If you wont say,
What this silence is about?
Cos I'm going out of my mind,
And I don't think it's fair.
Just when things seemed to be fine,
You changed then didn't care.
Cos the least you could do,
Is to talk this through
And I'm going out of my mind,
Over you.
Hey you, you haven't called.
I guess you're still busy.
Guess I think more of you,
Than you do of me.
And that's not how I want it to be.
Cos I'm going out of my mind,
And I don't think it's fair.
Just when things seemed to be fine,
You changed then didn't care.
Cos the least you could do
Is to talk this through
And I'm going out of my mind,
Over you, yeah.
Hey you, its me again.
Ooh, it's me again.
Cos I'm going out of my mind,
And I don't think its fair.
Just when things seemed to be fine,
You changed then didn't care.
Cos the least you could do
Is to talk this through
And I'm going out of my mind,
Over you.

Testing

2004-01-18T10:31:10Z

livejournal is being gay so i am testing it

innocent_eyes21 @ 2004-01-16T10:32:00

2004-01-16T16:32:08Z

Your Superhero Persona by couplandesque
Your Name
Superhero Name	The Scotsman
Super Power	Ability To Breathe Underwater
Enemy	The Disgruntled Mailman
Mode Of Transportation	Skateboard
Weapon	Baseball Bat

Created with quill18's MemeGen!

innocent_eyes21 @ 2004-01-09T10:26:00

2004-01-09T16:26:11Z

You're just the happy go-lucky type. You might have
your pet peeves, but other than that, you're
mainly calm. Blending in with your
surroundings, you're the type of person who
everyone likes. Usually it's you who cracks
jokes at social gatherings - after all,
laughter is the best medicine. Sometimes you
pretend to be stupid, but in all actuality, you
could be the next Einstein.

What Type of Soul Do You Have ?
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innocent_eyes21 @ 2003-12-21T23:35:00

2003-12-22T05:35:24Z

My LiveJournal Sitcom
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What's Your LiveJournal Sitcom? (by rfreebern)

My LiveJournal Sitcom

At a music store (FX, 8:30): Innocent_Eyes21 (Tim Robbins) nixes when_i_am_queen (Wil Wheaton)'s picnic plans. Later, djmitaz (Max von Sydow) plays chess against myzzlyzz (Dana Carvey), who doesn't know how. Afterwards, luthiendurer (Breckin Meyer) sets starya13 (Denzel Washington)'s desk on fire. Nearby, skycaptain20 (Jeremy Irons) and brancaaranha (Christopher Lee) buy the Met. That night, tazzypumpkin (Rosie O'Donnell) accidentally breaks zerohero333 (Shannen Doherty)'s mouthwash. (Season finale.)

What's Your LiveJournal Sitcom? (by rfreebern)

Why

2003-12-19T21:19:27Z

do people say they'll call the next day and then they never call? I don't get it. I really don't. Two of my friends were suppose to call and never did. I was kinda mad. I always make sure I call people when I say that I am going to call. Cuz It's just rude not to call a person I think. I was suppose to go shopping tonight,but now Cathy is sick and can't go. Maybe I'll call Katy and see if she wants to go shopping with me tonight. I got paid today and I don't want to sit at home. I get so bored with sitting at home. Well I am going to go

innocent_eyes21 @ 2003-12-12T20:40:00

2003-12-13T02:40:49Z

I got this from Laura

I love this song

2003-12-11T22:06:32Z

[Spoken]
Don't look at me

Every day is so wonderful
And suddenly, it's hard to breathe
Now and then, I get insecure
From all the fame, I'm so ashamed

I am beautiful no matter what they say
Words can't bring me down
I am beautiful in every single way
Yes, words can't bring me down
So don't you bring me down today

To all your friends, you're delirious
So consumed in all your doom
Trying hard to fill the emptiness
The piece is gone and the puzzle undone
That's the way it is

You are beautiful no matter what they say
Words won't bring you down
You are beautiful in every single way
Yes, words won't bring you down
Don't you bring me down today...

No matter what we do
(no matter what we do)
No matter what they say
(no matter what they say)
We're the song inside the tune
Full of beautiful mistakes

And everywhere we go
(everywhere we go)
The sun will always shine
(sun will always shine)
And tomorrow we might wake on the other side
All the other times

We are beautiful no matter what they say
Yes, words won't bring us down
We are beautiful no matter what they say
Yes, words can't bring us down
Don't you bring me down today

Don't you bring me down today
Don't you bring me down today

innocent_eyes21 @ 2003-12-11T15:59:00

2003-12-11T22:00:23Z

Sometimes I feel you’re not listening
Sometimes I feel you don’t understand
But I think I’ve got the answer
Already know what you’re gonna say

‘Cause I’m just a little girl you see
But there’s a hell of a lot more to me
Don’t ever underestimate what I can do
Don’t ever tell me how I’m meant to be

You say I’m just a little girl, just a little girl
How can I compare? What do I know?
What have I got to share?
But there’s nothing in this world, nothing in this world
That could hold me down, can’t you hear me?
Don’t you understand
That I wanna be myself, wanna be the girl,
Wanna be the one that you can rely on
How I wish that you could see all there is of me
How I long to hear that you take me
For who I am

‘Cause I’m just a little girl you see
But there’s a hell of a lot more to me
Don’t ever underestimate what I can do
Don’t ever tell me how I’m meant to be

‘Cause I’m just a little girl you see
But there’s a hell of a lot more to me
Don’t ever underestimate what I can do
Don’t ever tell me how I’m meant to be

Sometimes I feel you’re not listening
Sometimes I feel you don’t understand

‘Cause I’m just a little girl you see
But there’s a hell of a lot more to me
Don’t ever underestimate what I can do
Don’t ever tell me how I’m meant to be

‘Cause I’m just a little girl you see
But there’s a hell of a lot more to me
Don’t ever underestimate what I can do
Don’t ever tell me how I’m meant to be

Grrr!

2003-12-11T21:57:42Z

I am so fucking annoyed right now! it's so no t fucking funny. why! why must people fucking jump to conclusions about shit!! Goddamnit! I am so mad right now.

So...

2003-12-11T17:32:53Z

I love this song that I am listening to right now. It's pretty cool. I've been up for close to half an hour now. And I really haven't talked to anyone except one of my friends. It was pretty. We don't talk as much as we should. I have a lot on my mind. I was so tired last night I couldn't even think straight. Nor could I see straight. I kept seeing all blurry and shit. It gave me a headache so bad. It's really crappy here. It's really cold and then the weather was fucked up majorly. I took my walk last night and it was really icy where the snow wasn't covering it. SO I had to watch where I walk so I didn't fall on the ice. I have that habit of always falling on ice. I've been doing some thinking alot lately and I need to do something with my life. I need to move out of my mom and stepdad's house. I am almost 21 years old. I need to go. I want out of the state I live in. I want to go anywhere but here. Somewhere I'll be wanted and not have to worry about things all the time. Apart of me wants to move out of America. Maybe to Canada or something. My friend Katy wants to go to Canada. I don't know I guess I have alot of time to think about it because I need to start saving my money. With Christmas and all, I haven't been able to save any of my money. So hopefully I'll be able to start saving some money. Money is what I need right now. Like really bad. I want to go someplace but I just need the money. It'll cost like $309,but I think I can get that saved up. I mean I do have a job. Well I am gonna go.

YAY!!!

2003-12-11T10:23:01Z

Okay I have to thank Mitaz for my layout. So Thank you hun. I really like the way it looks

innocent_eyes21 @ 2003-12-11T02:29:00

2003-12-11T08:29:04Z

You are a goddess!

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Hmmm...

2003-12-10T20:51:21Z

What a fucking crap ass day. The weather is so fucked up. It's been snowing,raining, sleeting and freezing rain. I have to go back to work in less than an hour. I came between shifts so I can talk to someone. I usually go to my grandmas, but I wanted to come home. I've been having to train two girls at work these last few days. I am gonna be so burned out from work. It's not going to be funny. I am already so exhausted. I don't want to go back to work! I want to stay home. I don't think I can do that though lol. I have to work with one of the new girls tonight. It should be alright though. This week is gonna suck though. Well I am gonna go.

Meh

2003-12-08T14:05:52Z

I have nothing new to really say. Just had alot on my mind lately. Nothing I want to talk about. I mean at some point I do want to talk about it,but I can't. Okay I am not making any sense